Revelation602

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Friday, March 08, 2002

Two and a half years I've toiled. Awaiting for the moment to arrive where I could lead them into battle...now I'm not a leader...not the sort I want to be. He got his position, and I lost mine. Fair? Hardly...Perhaps it's time to start searching for something new - something where I can't be fucked...something, maybe, of my own.

Dave @ 5:35 PM [+] ::

Tonight, I'm in purdah after quite a personnal frission that lacked only excitment and emotional thrill...hmmm...
and now a picture!


Dave @ 8:57 PM [+] ::

As I was doing my homework today and watching the idiot box, thoughts of incontinuity entered my mind.

Sometimes I feel that feeling in my stomach that will eventually lead the way
To a transition, slow as it maybe be, it won't last
Eventually the feels grows and vents,
Escaping my incontinuous grasp.

Dave @ 5:02 PM [+] ::

I had a conversation with my maker today...it went something like this:

The space between looks like a wide-open grave, waiting for me to crawl to
where tears will fall when she cries out "just be true"
I open my arms to the sun,
wondering why "can't I just have fun?"
"It won't bring you closer to me"

When will I feel alive again?
When will we feel alive again?
When will she be alright, when?

Dave @ 4:20 PM [+] ::

Words are flowing through my mind like water through a funnel, spiraling downwards from my head, into my hand, and onto paper. I'm feeling creative.

Dave @ 8:39 PM [+] ::

Many of you may realize that I'm a workaholic, but when I work, I often get stressed out, and I need to vent. I have the unique ability to vent in every way possible, however, I find words are the most powerful releasing tool. I phoned the climbing gym a short while ago, and discovered that some thoughtless soul is stealing all the hours. I won't mention names, but I now realize that I can't trust this person anymore than I could a year ago. Friend...one attached to another by respect or affection. Employee...a person who works for another. Currently this person is the latter. Will it change? I sincerely doubt it. One favourable aspect of this post is the Blogger ventalation system - it works perfectly. Air is now circulating freely...

Dave @ 2:06 PM [+] ::

For a slight change, I thought I'd post some lyrics I wrote a short time ago. This "song" is an intricate part of my spirituality, so I hope you are as enthusiastic about reading it as I was about writing it. I call it "Lucidity":

VERSE 1?
Tonight the trance begins again
I fade out of exsistance in the real world
My eyes slowly shut and the cycle beings,
Only to find my thoughts are backwards

VERSE 2?
Swimming in my thoughts at my descretion
Used to be a slow progression
The complexity of this new world escapes my grasp
My minds going to fucking fast...

CHORUS?
Dreams that were are no longer;
I don't dream,
Lucidity no longer helps me.

Dave @ 12:23 PM [+] ::

In the illustrious words of Incubus' Brandon Boyd, "I woke up on the wrong side of bed today...A little bit less than nothing would go my way..."
From the moment the early-morning rays of sunlight filtered through my windows, I realized what an exhausting day this would be...
(don't ask)

Dave @ 5:44 PM [+] ::